1 00:00:01,380 --> 00:00:02,540 Previously on "Chance"... 2 00:00:02,541 --> 00:00:05,383 Nic thanked Pepper? 3 00:00:05,384 --> 00:00:07,345 Right after she broke her nose. 4 00:00:07,346 --> 00:00:10,115 My father hired new Pis to track me. 5 00:00:10,116 --> 00:00:12,035 It'll just be for a couple of days. 6 00:00:12,089 --> 00:00:13,690 Why don't you just talk to him, 7 00:00:13,691 --> 00:00:15,091 just get everything out on the table, 8 00:00:15,092 --> 00:00:17,373 even if it's only to establish terms? 9 00:00:17,374 --> 00:00:19,536 My son... the last time I saw him, 10 00:00:19,537 --> 00:00:21,257 he was just a little boy. 11 00:00:21,258 --> 00:00:23,660 - What happened? - Well, gay is what happened. 12 00:00:23,661 --> 00:00:25,622 Winter's people reached out. 13 00:00:25,623 --> 00:00:28,505 I'm telling you, as a friend, you need to back off. 14 00:00:28,506 --> 00:00:30,226 He wants to torment you, 15 00:00:30,227 --> 00:00:31,988 and you can't let him get away with it. 16 00:00:31,989 --> 00:00:33,349 We can't. 17 00:00:33,350 --> 00:00:35,952 Winter filed another complaint. 18 00:00:35,953 --> 00:00:37,353 I've lost my job. 19 00:00:37,354 --> 00:00:39,676 Mr. Winter has suffered a trauma. 20 00:00:39,677 --> 00:00:41,678 It's raised issues for him that he wants to work through 21 00:00:41,679 --> 00:00:43,119 with therapy. 22 00:00:43,120 --> 00:00:45,241 Does he want that, or do you want it? 23 00:00:45,242 --> 00:00:48,004 He says he has to trust the process, trust you, 24 00:00:48,005 --> 00:00:50,407 but I don't have to, and I don't. 25 00:00:50,408 --> 00:00:52,969 I hurt people. 26 00:00:52,970 --> 00:00:55,412 I hurt them so bad... 27 00:00:55,413 --> 00:00:57,655 that they died. 28 00:01:37,654 --> 00:01:46,463 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 29 00:01:47,985 --> 00:01:51,347 I felt helpless. 30 00:01:51,348 --> 00:01:53,671 Then I found a way not to be. 31 00:01:55,833 --> 00:01:57,474 She woke back up... 32 00:01:57,475 --> 00:01:59,636 at one point. 33 00:01:59,637 --> 00:02:01,135 Regained consciousness. 34 00:02:01,136 --> 00:02:03,607 Mommy! Mommy! 35 00:02:04,241 --> 00:02:07,804 It's funny, she was, uh, pretty lucid talking about... 36 00:02:07,805 --> 00:02:09,964 well, not funny, 37 00:02:09,965 --> 00:02:14,952 but it's curious, the kinds of things people will say. 38 00:02:16,894 --> 00:02:19,335 She said that she was worried about 39 00:02:19,336 --> 00:02:21,498 a driver's test she had the next morning 40 00:02:21,499 --> 00:02:24,380 and asked me if I was there to help her study. 41 00:02:24,381 --> 00:02:26,237 To tutor her. 42 00:02:31,188 --> 00:02:33,136 Her name was Catherine. 43 00:02:35,013 --> 00:02:37,034 And she made me feel better. 44 00:02:41,759 --> 00:02:43,360 That was the first one? 45 00:02:45,122 --> 00:02:47,564 First one you... you hurt? 46 00:02:48,271 --> 00:02:49,872 You killed? 47 00:02:57,141 --> 00:02:59,223 That was your coping mechanism. 48 00:03:00,659 --> 00:03:02,098 Yes. 49 00:03:02,653 --> 00:03:04,462 But it didn't last. 50 00:03:06,762 --> 00:03:08,004 No. 51 00:03:10,307 --> 00:03:12,869 Once you know how, you want to feel better again. 52 00:03:19,517 --> 00:03:20,998 How many? 53 00:03:22,680 --> 00:03:24,080 How many have there been? 54 00:03:34,572 --> 00:03:36,693 How do you choose them? 55 00:03:36,694 --> 00:03:38,214 Your victims? 56 00:03:38,215 --> 00:03:40,297 Sins choose us... 57 00:03:42,748 --> 00:03:45,823 ...according to our weaknesses. 58 00:03:47,825 --> 00:03:50,507 But there are people 59 00:03:50,508 --> 00:03:55,351 who shine with vulnerability, 60 00:03:55,352 --> 00:03:57,714 whether they know it or not. 61 00:03:57,715 --> 00:03:59,756 Their faces say, 62 00:03:59,757 --> 00:04:02,238 "I am afraid of you." 63 00:04:02,601 --> 00:04:06,042 Their faces tell you what they expect you to do to them. 64 00:04:06,043 --> 00:04:08,485 They expect to be hurt. 65 00:04:08,815 --> 00:04:10,527 They invite it, 66 00:04:10,528 --> 00:04:12,569 because they expect it. 67 00:04:14,237 --> 00:04:16,733 And if I chose anything, 68 00:04:16,734 --> 00:04:21,659 it was because their weakness spoke to mine. 69 00:04:25,256 --> 00:04:26,656 Were they all mothers? 70 00:04:28,496 --> 00:04:31,823 A child shines with vulnerability. 71 00:04:33,785 --> 00:04:36,748 A child who's been hurt expects to be hurt again. 72 00:04:38,509 --> 00:04:40,470 Does that mean they deserve it? 73 00:04:40,471 --> 00:04:43,850 Or do they deserve to be protected? 74 00:04:44,649 --> 00:04:47,771 Cared for? Loved? 75 00:04:52,563 --> 00:04:54,444 Who told you this, 76 00:04:54,820 --> 00:04:56,951 about sin and weakness? 77 00:04:56,952 --> 00:04:58,615 Who said that to you? 78 00:04:59,715 --> 00:05:01,876 A very damaged woman 79 00:05:01,877 --> 00:05:05,279 who was carrying her own terrible psychic pain 80 00:05:05,280 --> 00:05:07,958 she tried to give to you... pass on to you. 81 00:05:08,804 --> 00:05:10,886 Before she tried to destroy you. 82 00:05:13,969 --> 00:05:15,850 I'm not dead. 83 00:05:15,851 --> 00:05:18,493 I'm lost, but I'm not dead. 84 00:05:18,494 --> 00:05:20,294 I'm not dead! 85 00:05:49,084 --> 00:05:50,685 Hm. 86 00:05:51,168 --> 00:05:53,087 Old school. 87 00:05:53,088 --> 00:05:54,649 But effective. 88 00:06:04,740 --> 00:06:06,501 How's this? 89 00:06:20,476 --> 00:06:22,116 How about now? 90 00:06:25,200 --> 00:06:28,684 Fear stops when you kill the thing you're afraid of. 91 00:06:30,566 --> 00:06:32,567 Or it kills you. 92 00:06:49,665 --> 00:06:51,311 How many? 93 00:06:51,867 --> 00:06:55,349 He talked about how he kills them and how he tracked them. 94 00:06:55,350 --> 00:06:56,631 He implied it was many, 95 00:06:56,632 --> 00:06:58,673 but he never actually said a number. 96 00:06:58,674 --> 00:07:01,029 He did name one, though... Catherine. 97 00:07:01,436 --> 00:07:03,478 I-I... I had him. 98 00:07:03,479 --> 00:07:04,879 He was right there with me. 99 00:07:04,880 --> 00:07:06,881 Let's just go for a drive. 100 00:07:06,882 --> 00:07:08,563 Maybe we just go for a drive. 101 00:07:08,564 --> 00:07:11,686 Yeah. I'll drive you wherever you want to go. 102 00:07:11,687 --> 00:07:13,207 I don't feel right. 103 00:07:13,208 --> 00:07:15,890 Listen, I think you're being very brave, Ryan. 104 00:07:15,891 --> 00:07:19,454 You've had to carry this whole thing alone for so long. 105 00:07:19,455 --> 00:07:20,975 Give me a second. 106 00:07:20,976 --> 00:07:22,376 You know what I think we should do right now? 107 00:07:22,377 --> 00:07:24,499 I'd like to bring you to the hospital. 108 00:07:24,500 --> 00:07:26,260 Get you admitted. 109 00:07:26,261 --> 00:07:29,904 You got further than I ever did, than... than anyone could. 110 00:07:29,905 --> 00:07:31,385 But then to fucking lose him... 111 00:07:31,386 --> 00:07:34,068 Kitchen door open. 112 00:07:34,069 --> 00:07:37,311 Oh, no. No, no, no. 113 00:07:37,312 --> 00:07:38,633 What? 114 00:07:38,634 --> 00:07:39,914 She's here. 115 00:07:39,915 --> 00:07:41,916 Ryan, are you all right? 116 00:07:41,917 --> 00:07:44,438 I'm sorry, I... What's going on here? 117 00:07:44,439 --> 00:07:46,761 This... This doesn't change anything, all right? 118 00:07:46,762 --> 00:07:48,603 I heard you. I want to help you. 119 00:07:48,604 --> 00:07:50,525 Help him? He's a wreck because of you. 120 00:07:50,526 --> 00:07:52,807 You can't go back on this now. You know that. 121 00:07:52,808 --> 00:07:54,609 The only way out of this is through. 122 00:07:54,610 --> 00:07:55,930 Please come with me now. 123 00:07:55,931 --> 00:07:57,091 - Please? - Come with you? 124 00:07:57,092 --> 00:07:59,093 Ryan, please! 125 00:07:59,094 --> 00:08:00,935 I don't know if he actually wanted to stop. 126 00:08:00,936 --> 00:08:02,817 You know what people do that don't want to stop? 127 00:08:02,818 --> 00:08:04,939 They keep fucking going. 128 00:08:04,940 --> 00:08:06,821 - He wants you to leave. - He didn't say that. 129 00:08:06,822 --> 00:08:08,342 He doesn't need to. 130 00:08:08,343 --> 00:08:09,343 What? 131 00:08:09,344 --> 00:08:11,746 Maybe I should call 911. 132 00:08:11,747 --> 00:08:14,519 Go ahead. Let's get the police here. 133 00:08:15,711 --> 00:08:17,632 You're awfully confident. 134 00:08:17,633 --> 00:08:19,274 Wonder why that is. 135 00:08:22,157 --> 00:08:23,361 You're ready? 136 00:08:24,118 --> 00:08:25,559 Let's call them. 137 00:08:31,166 --> 00:08:33,488 I didn't get him to turn himself in, 138 00:08:33,489 --> 00:08:34,849 I didn't get him to admit anything 139 00:08:34,850 --> 00:08:36,771 that I could legally take to the police. 140 00:08:36,772 --> 00:08:37,959 I should've... 141 00:08:38,774 --> 00:08:40,575 My head was just fill... I wanted to... 142 00:08:40,576 --> 00:08:42,376 What? Get yourself arrested? 143 00:08:42,377 --> 00:08:45,383 Fuck that. You played it the way you could. 144 00:08:46,261 --> 00:08:48,903 And you... you didn't blow it. You got us a name... Catherine. 145 00:08:48,904 --> 00:08:51,385 I've never heard of any unsolved Catherines. 146 00:08:51,386 --> 00:08:53,147 Maybe they never found her body. 147 00:08:53,148 --> 00:08:55,602 Or maybe she's one of the bodies out in the Headlands, even. 148 00:08:56,031 --> 00:08:57,937 I'm gonna look into that. 149 00:08:59,064 --> 00:09:02,156 - Look into it how? - Well, I mean, I'm... 150 00:09:02,157 --> 00:09:04,278 I'm gonna look into having someone look into it for me. 151 00:09:04,279 --> 00:09:07,522 I've got this friend Frank at the D. A.'s office 152 00:09:07,523 --> 00:09:09,644 who doesn't completely hate me yet... 153 00:09:09,645 --> 00:09:11,807 I c... I can ask him. 154 00:09:13,328 --> 00:09:15,570 Oh, and speaking of looking into things, 155 00:09:15,571 --> 00:09:17,612 that fucking Lyndsay, 156 00:09:17,613 --> 00:09:20,094 I looked into her way back when, and nothing. 157 00:09:20,095 --> 00:09:21,896 Where is she from? 158 00:09:21,897 --> 00:09:24,338 Uh, Connecticut or some shit. Why? 159 00:09:24,339 --> 00:09:27,302 I don't know. Just grasping at straws, I guess. 160 00:09:29,104 --> 00:09:31,145 Maybe Winter doesn't have any involvement 161 00:09:31,146 --> 00:09:33,027 with Stevie Benjamin's death. 162 00:09:33,028 --> 00:09:36,150 Oh, well, this is... Christ. 163 00:09:36,151 --> 00:09:38,192 Maybe he just had a morbid fascination with it, 164 00:09:38,193 --> 00:09:41,035 from growing up close by. 165 00:09:41,036 --> 00:09:42,837 Maybe the rock that D found in his house 166 00:09:42,838 --> 00:09:44,358 doesn't have the significance we thought it did. 167 00:09:44,359 --> 00:09:46,280 Maybe since we're dreaming, I'd like a pony. 168 00:09:46,281 --> 00:09:47,882 I know. I-I agree. 169 00:09:47,883 --> 00:09:49,764 I'm just saying, if we're not dreaming, if we are right, 170 00:09:49,765 --> 00:09:53,167 then we still don't actually know who that DNA belongs to. 171 00:09:53,168 --> 00:09:55,010 No, we don't, do we? 172 00:09:56,532 --> 00:10:01,335 So, Winter admitted that his... 173 00:10:01,336 --> 00:10:04,859 coping mechanism is killing. 174 00:10:04,860 --> 00:10:07,942 And he also admitted that it's not working anymore. 175 00:10:07,943 --> 00:10:11,185 I don't even want to think about how he came to that conclusion. 176 00:10:11,186 --> 00:10:13,347 I've got enough on my conscience as it is. 177 00:10:13,348 --> 00:10:16,632 Right now, my focus has to be to get him back. 178 00:10:18,153 --> 00:10:19,834 You know, when I was sitting opposite him, 179 00:10:19,835 --> 00:10:22,638 he was rambling on about dealing out death... 180 00:10:24,119 --> 00:10:26,200 ...I thought about dealing it right back at him. 181 00:10:26,201 --> 00:10:27,652 More than once. 182 00:10:29,044 --> 00:10:31,906 I don't know how you do it, all those years. 183 00:10:32,728 --> 00:10:35,970 Sitting opposite killers, encouraging them, 184 00:10:35,971 --> 00:10:37,892 getting them to elaborate without... 185 00:10:37,893 --> 00:10:40,134 Stabbing them in the fucking eye? 186 00:10:44,620 --> 00:10:45,820 Let me tell you something. 187 00:10:45,821 --> 00:10:47,301 You know how many times 188 00:10:47,302 --> 00:10:49,984 I pulled out my piece in the line of duty? 189 00:10:49,985 --> 00:10:53,027 7... 26 years. 190 00:10:53,028 --> 00:10:54,589 You know how many times I've shot it? 191 00:10:54,590 --> 00:10:55,790 Once. 192 00:10:55,791 --> 00:10:57,682 You know how many people I've killed? 193 00:10:58,474 --> 00:11:00,143 None. 194 00:11:01,156 --> 00:11:03,077 If you're not acting in self-defense, 195 00:11:03,078 --> 00:11:05,239 or the active defense of someone else, 196 00:11:05,240 --> 00:11:07,400 then you're a fucking murderer. 197 00:11:08,083 --> 00:11:09,764 Ryan Winter is a murderer. 198 00:11:09,765 --> 00:11:12,906 And that's who he wants to be. 199 00:11:13,649 --> 00:11:15,575 I'm not gonna be like him. 200 00:11:16,131 --> 00:11:18,036 We have a deal. 201 00:11:18,974 --> 00:11:21,936 Ryan Winter in front of the bar of justice, 202 00:11:21,937 --> 00:11:24,418 to bare all before the whole world. 203 00:11:24,419 --> 00:11:26,711 I'm gonna do this the right way. 204 00:11:27,463 --> 00:11:29,824 Not Ryan Winter's way. 205 00:11:34,510 --> 00:11:36,712 And your super-sized friend? 206 00:11:39,555 --> 00:11:43,353 I'm sure he's gonna be asking the same question. 207 00:11:43,999 --> 00:11:46,200 So, you're gonna have to tell him that we... 208 00:11:46,201 --> 00:11:47,982 we have a deal. 209 00:11:59,655 --> 00:12:01,896 His parole officer called me, told me he'd been working 210 00:12:01,897 --> 00:12:05,700 in a 24-hour garage in Daly City for about the last month. 211 00:12:05,701 --> 00:12:07,594 Called over and talked to the manager. 212 00:12:07,619 --> 00:12:08,663 And? 213 00:12:08,664 --> 00:12:11,345 And Pardo's not the most popular guy there. 214 00:12:11,346 --> 00:12:13,468 So when some big bald guy showed up recently 215 00:12:13,469 --> 00:12:16,551 and gave him a beatdown, nobody was that surprised. 216 00:12:16,552 --> 00:12:18,232 Or sad. 217 00:12:18,233 --> 00:12:20,354 Broke a bunch of bones, put him in the hospital. 218 00:12:20,355 --> 00:12:21,956 When he got out, 219 00:12:21,957 --> 00:12:23,479 went to live with his sister in Castro Valley. 220 00:12:26,081 --> 00:12:28,202 So, uh, what's the deal? 221 00:12:28,565 --> 00:12:30,324 Who's this Pardo guy to you? 222 00:12:43,499 --> 00:12:45,380 Hinto. 223 00:12:47,703 --> 00:12:49,344 Mass attack. 224 00:12:51,066 --> 00:12:52,468 I need six guys. 225 00:12:55,030 --> 00:12:57,010 I want you to come at me, hard. 226 00:12:58,514 --> 00:13:00,781 I want you to really try to hurt me. 227 00:13:01,180 --> 00:13:03,198 And I'm gonna really try to hurt you. 228 00:13:06,201 --> 00:13:07,729 Ready? 229 00:13:08,484 --> 00:13:12,086 - I'm taking this dog. 230 00:13:12,087 --> 00:13:14,208 - No! Please. He's mine! - You can't take care of it, man. 231 00:13:14,209 --> 00:13:15,890 You know that. This is an animal abuse. 232 00:13:15,891 --> 00:13:18,217 - Hey, come on, man. - That's his dog. 233 00:13:18,297 --> 00:13:20,097 Yeah, well, he can't help himself. 234 00:13:20,098 --> 00:13:21,859 - How's he gonna help the dog? - No, please! 235 00:13:21,860 --> 00:13:24,302 Put your phones away. It deserves to be protected. 236 00:13:24,303 --> 00:13:26,263 - It deserves a home! - Hey! You're hurting him! 237 00:13:26,264 --> 00:13:29,747 - Hey, watch it. - No! 238 00:13:31,870 --> 00:13:34,752 Get their plates. 239 00:13:34,753 --> 00:13:36,754 Ohh! 240 00:13:41,054 --> 00:13:45,122 Who does that? 241 00:14:32,008 --> 00:14:33,328 Hey. 242 00:14:34,082 --> 00:14:36,076 Dad's not here. 243 00:14:36,076 --> 00:14:37,156 I know. 244 00:14:37,157 --> 00:14:38,678 Futon's all yours again. 245 00:14:40,641 --> 00:14:42,482 - Hey, you okay? - Yep. 246 00:14:42,483 --> 00:14:44,845 - You get in a fight? - Nope. 247 00:14:46,607 --> 00:14:48,248 What are you working on? 248 00:14:51,732 --> 00:14:53,653 This morning, I saw this rich couple 249 00:14:53,654 --> 00:14:55,575 steal a homeless guy's dog. 250 00:14:55,576 --> 00:14:57,216 At least they looked like they were rich. 251 00:14:57,217 --> 00:14:59,018 So mean and shitty. 252 00:14:59,019 --> 00:15:01,981 They just yanked it right out of his arms and drove away. 253 00:15:01,982 --> 00:15:04,183 We all just stood there watching. 254 00:15:04,184 --> 00:15:06,145 Or even worse, filming it. 255 00:15:06,146 --> 00:15:07,547 How fucked up is that? 256 00:15:07,548 --> 00:15:09,468 - Pretty fucked up. - Yeah. 257 00:15:09,469 --> 00:15:12,231 So, anyway, I'm trying to find them 258 00:15:12,232 --> 00:15:14,514 through the gross magic of social media. 259 00:15:16,957 --> 00:15:19,278 - The rich hipster couple. - To do what? 260 00:15:19,279 --> 00:15:21,320 I don't know. Talk to them. 261 00:15:21,321 --> 00:15:23,082 Say if they let me take the dog back, 262 00:15:23,083 --> 00:15:25,004 I'll keep an eye on it if they're worried, 263 00:15:25,005 --> 00:15:27,166 make sure it gets its shots and whatever. 264 00:15:27,167 --> 00:15:29,495 That way, everyone can get what they want. 265 00:15:31,131 --> 00:15:34,293 These rich people you're talking about... 266 00:15:34,294 --> 00:15:36,175 they have what they want. 267 00:15:36,176 --> 00:15:38,218 They don't care about you. 268 00:15:39,740 --> 00:15:42,141 Before you even open your mouth, 269 00:15:42,142 --> 00:15:44,024 you'll be wasting their time. 270 00:15:45,626 --> 00:15:47,307 You can plan shit out in your head. 271 00:15:48,629 --> 00:15:50,670 Everything you want to do and say... 272 00:15:50,671 --> 00:15:53,913 everything you think the other guy might do or say. 273 00:15:53,914 --> 00:15:55,995 But when you get to it, 274 00:15:55,996 --> 00:15:58,024 nothing is like you planned. 275 00:15:58,639 --> 00:16:00,159 Ever. 276 00:16:00,160 --> 00:16:01,778 Okay. 277 00:16:02,683 --> 00:16:05,605 If I left anything here that you find, just throw it away. 278 00:16:16,657 --> 00:16:19,058 Hey, I got it. I got it. Thanks. 279 00:16:19,059 --> 00:16:20,860 Knock, knock. 280 00:16:20,861 --> 00:16:22,766 - Kev. - Frank. 281 00:16:22,767 --> 00:16:23,863 My man. 282 00:16:23,864 --> 00:16:25,545 That thing you're working on pan out? 283 00:16:25,546 --> 00:16:27,306 - What's up? - Yeah. No. 284 00:16:27,307 --> 00:16:29,789 We had a little setback there, but we're still on track. 285 00:16:29,790 --> 00:16:31,226 - Uh-huh. - But, in the meantime, 286 00:16:31,251 --> 00:16:32,552 I could use a favor. 287 00:16:32,553 --> 00:16:33,993 Well, a couple of them, actually. 288 00:16:33,994 --> 00:16:35,686 Jesus wept. 289 00:16:36,196 --> 00:16:39,398 - Katherine Atkins. - Mm. Mother of two. 290 00:16:39,399 --> 00:16:42,882 And the DOJ website reported her missing in 2005 291 00:16:42,883 --> 00:16:44,484 in, uh, Alameda County. 292 00:16:44,485 --> 00:16:47,807 So I called Alameda PD and got the run-around. 293 00:16:47,808 --> 00:16:50,369 And long story short, they found a body, 294 00:16:50,370 --> 00:16:52,171 but they won't tell me shit. 295 00:16:52,172 --> 00:16:53,813 Well, like, what do you want to know? 296 00:16:53,814 --> 00:16:56,015 Well, for starters, I'd like to know how she died. 297 00:16:56,016 --> 00:17:00,300 And also, whether there were, uh, rocks in her throat. 298 00:17:02,543 --> 00:17:06,746 Okay. I'm not even... Yeah, I can make a call. Okay. 299 00:17:06,747 --> 00:17:08,508 What else? 300 00:17:08,509 --> 00:17:10,149 You, uh, know somebody 301 00:17:10,150 --> 00:17:11,551 in the State's Attorney's office 302 00:17:11,552 --> 00:17:13,673 in Bridgeport, right? 303 00:17:13,674 --> 00:17:15,034 In Bridgeport? 304 00:17:15,035 --> 00:17:16,476 You're talking Bridgeport, Connecticut? 305 00:17:16,477 --> 00:17:18,037 - Yes. - Jesus Christ, buddy. 306 00:17:18,038 --> 00:17:21,240 You are... You are all over the map today. 307 00:17:21,241 --> 00:17:23,042 Yes, I do. Why? 308 00:17:23,043 --> 00:17:25,324 Great. Can you ask them to run that sheet? 309 00:17:25,325 --> 00:17:27,647 I'm looking for any expunged criminal records. 310 00:17:27,648 --> 00:17:29,809 I mean, I... Look, I ran her a few years ago, 311 00:17:29,810 --> 00:17:32,076 but I only did it in California, so... 312 00:17:32,573 --> 00:17:34,036 Who's Lyndsay Hamilton? 313 00:17:34,775 --> 00:17:37,416 Well, she's, uh, Winter's assistant. 314 00:17:37,417 --> 00:17:38,818 - Wint... Come on. - Yeah, I know. 315 00:17:38,819 --> 00:17:40,780 - Kevin, why? - I know, but listen to me. 316 00:17:40,781 --> 00:17:42,942 I'm just thinking maybe Winter had some help along the way. 317 00:17:42,943 --> 00:17:44,944 - So let's just leave it at that. - No, but that's just it. 318 00:17:44,945 --> 00:17:49,069 Help with what? And... based on what? 319 00:17:52,793 --> 00:17:54,474 Kevin, not for nothing, 320 00:17:54,475 --> 00:17:58,678 but being your friend is like having a goddamn colonoscopy. 321 00:17:59,228 --> 00:18:00,720 Please, Frank? 322 00:18:01,397 --> 00:18:03,203 I need your help. Please. 323 00:18:07,287 --> 00:18:08,529 Okay. 324 00:18:09,610 --> 00:18:11,050 Thank you. 325 00:18:11,051 --> 00:18:12,291 Appreciate it. 326 00:18:12,292 --> 00:18:13,733 - Now leave me alone? - Yes. 327 00:18:13,734 --> 00:18:16,656 - Please? - For today, I will. 328 00:18:16,657 --> 00:18:18,939 Thanks again, Frank. 329 00:18:22,623 --> 00:18:24,824 Hi. This is Ryan. Leave a message. 330 00:18:26,266 --> 00:18:29,468 Ryan, it's Eldon Chance here again. 331 00:18:29,469 --> 00:18:31,511 Please call me. 332 00:18:31,512 --> 00:18:33,673 Please reach out, okay? 333 00:18:33,674 --> 00:18:35,755 I-I-I need to know you're all right. 334 00:18:35,756 --> 00:18:38,559 I'm here to help you. I want to help you. 335 00:18:39,600 --> 00:18:41,062 Okay. 336 00:18:53,814 --> 00:18:54,934 Ryan? 337 00:18:54,935 --> 00:18:57,536 Stop calling him! 338 00:18:58,018 --> 00:19:02,421 Lyndsay, Mr. Winter is in a fragile state right now. 339 00:19:02,422 --> 00:19:04,343 He needs constant medical supervision. 340 00:19:04,344 --> 00:19:07,587 It's possible he might hurt himself or someone else. 341 00:19:07,588 --> 00:19:10,429 I will lodge a formal complaint with the state medical board. 342 00:19:10,430 --> 00:19:11,911 I get it. You care about him. 343 00:19:11,912 --> 00:19:14,033 So do I. We're on the same side here. 344 00:19:14,034 --> 00:19:16,556 You will lose your license, face charges. 345 00:19:16,557 --> 00:19:17,877 Should I keep going? 346 00:19:17,878 --> 00:19:20,239 Listen, if anything happens to him, 347 00:19:20,240 --> 00:19:21,801 you could be held responsible. 348 00:19:21,802 --> 00:19:24,844 I am trying my best to be civil, Dr. Chance. 349 00:19:24,845 --> 00:19:28,025 You don't want to see what happens when I stop. 350 00:19:29,009 --> 00:19:31,279 Or maybe I do, Lyndsay. 351 00:19:32,599 --> 00:19:34,734 Maybe that way, I'll find out what it is you're hiding. 352 00:19:49,790 --> 00:19:50,911 - Hey. - Hey. 353 00:19:59,760 --> 00:20:02,081 So, full disclosure? 354 00:20:03,102 --> 00:20:05,566 That could mean almost anything, but sure. 355 00:20:07,287 --> 00:20:08,688 I found Wade Pardo. 356 00:20:10,067 --> 00:20:11,450 Okay? 357 00:20:11,451 --> 00:20:13,252 I know you said you thought he wouldn't come back here, 358 00:20:13,253 --> 00:20:14,613 but still. 359 00:20:15,335 --> 00:20:18,698 I asked a cop friend of mine to try and track him down. 360 00:20:18,699 --> 00:20:20,541 In case. 361 00:20:22,382 --> 00:20:23,784 And what'd you find out? 362 00:20:26,266 --> 00:20:28,748 He was working in Daly City, at a garage, 363 00:20:28,749 --> 00:20:31,430 and then somebody showed up and threw him a beatdown. 364 00:20:31,431 --> 00:20:32,952 Broke a lot of bones. 365 00:20:32,953 --> 00:20:35,343 Not too long after his run-in with you. 366 00:20:35,916 --> 00:20:38,839 Same thing happened to Matty Willis a couple weeks ago. 367 00:20:40,440 --> 00:20:41,761 He's the guy who broke into 368 00:20:41,762 --> 00:20:43,563 Clara Santiago's apartment and raped her. 369 00:20:43,564 --> 00:20:45,124 I think that the charge was dropped 370 00:20:45,125 --> 00:20:47,229 on an illegal search issue. 371 00:20:48,088 --> 00:20:49,569 But Clara came and told me that... 372 00:20:49,570 --> 00:20:52,451 that Matty'd been robbed, he'd been stabbed. 373 00:20:52,452 --> 00:20:55,855 He survived, but one of the nerves in his arm was severed. 374 00:20:55,856 --> 00:20:58,257 Really? I didn't hear about that. 375 00:20:59,158 --> 00:21:01,501 Well, honestly, if we followed up 376 00:21:01,502 --> 00:21:03,703 on every person who put a patient in here, 377 00:21:03,704 --> 00:21:05,344 I think we'd find the percentage of them 378 00:21:05,345 --> 00:21:07,026 volunteering in soup kitchens 379 00:21:07,027 --> 00:21:09,870 and helping old ladies across the street would be pretty low. 380 00:21:11,151 --> 00:21:14,131 Those who live by the sword, die by the sword, I guess. 381 00:21:14,635 --> 00:21:16,836 Or get maimed by the sword. 382 00:21:16,837 --> 00:21:19,158 And our job is to deal with the fallout. 383 00:21:19,637 --> 00:21:22,683 And we've got enough fallout to last the rest of our lives. 384 00:21:24,645 --> 00:21:27,687 Speaking of which... 385 00:21:27,688 --> 00:21:30,130 Didn't you come in to get coffee? 386 00:21:31,852 --> 00:21:33,776 Yeah, I did. 387 00:21:34,414 --> 00:21:35,935 Obviously I need it. 388 00:21:48,108 --> 00:21:50,750 - Come on. - How's he gonna help the dog? 389 00:21:50,751 --> 00:21:52,431 - Put your phones away. - What gives you the right? 390 00:21:52,432 --> 00:21:56,075 You're hurting him! 391 00:21:59,480 --> 00:22:00,960 Crazy messed up. Get the plates. 392 00:22:00,961 --> 00:22:03,803 Ohh. 393 00:22:06,647 --> 00:22:08,167 What the hell? 394 00:22:08,168 --> 00:22:09,448 No, no! 395 00:22:09,449 --> 00:22:11,130 Go, go, go! 396 00:22:11,131 --> 00:22:12,572 Stop it! 397 00:22:12,573 --> 00:22:14,654 Crazy messed up. Get the plates. 398 00:23:03,824 --> 00:23:05,945 Oh, that's closed now. 399 00:23:05,946 --> 00:23:08,107 It was up on 18th. 400 00:23:08,108 --> 00:23:10,039 It's the only place I could go. 401 00:23:10,871 --> 00:23:13,232 Come on, there weren't any other gay bars 402 00:23:13,233 --> 00:23:15,034 in the Castro in the '70s? 403 00:23:15,035 --> 00:23:18,037 The only place a black man could go. Ah. 404 00:23:18,038 --> 00:23:19,381 Besides Oakland. 405 00:23:20,521 --> 00:23:23,724 Ah. So what happened? 406 00:23:26,046 --> 00:23:28,599 I became... 407 00:23:29,209 --> 00:23:31,571 Incautious. 408 00:23:31,572 --> 00:23:33,012 If once a week was fine, 409 00:23:33,013 --> 00:23:35,380 four times a week was that much better. 410 00:23:35,381 --> 00:23:39,178 - Mm-hmm. - I told myself, before I told Olivia, 411 00:23:39,179 --> 00:23:41,861 I was trying to find what exactly it was 412 00:23:41,862 --> 00:23:43,903 that I was telling her. 413 00:23:43,904 --> 00:23:47,266 And while I was finding out, she found me out. 414 00:23:47,267 --> 00:23:48,988 Oh. 415 00:23:48,989 --> 00:23:52,623 Took Alvin to her mother's and followed me to the Pendulum. 416 00:23:53,958 --> 00:23:55,715 Oh, shit. 417 00:23:55,716 --> 00:23:58,718 It was a betrayal, no question. 418 00:23:58,719 --> 00:24:01,280 Made worse by having been discovered, 419 00:24:01,281 --> 00:24:03,123 rather than confessed. 420 00:24:05,245 --> 00:24:08,127 So, you... you never thought about just giving it up? 421 00:24:08,128 --> 00:24:10,449 I mean, pretending that it never happened 422 00:24:10,450 --> 00:24:12,309 and saying it was a mistake? 423 00:24:12,693 --> 00:24:16,255 You can't close your eyes once they've been opened. 424 00:24:20,741 --> 00:24:22,778 No, you can't. 425 00:24:23,984 --> 00:24:27,306 You know, you may not be a married man with a child, 426 00:24:27,307 --> 00:24:29,148 but still. 427 00:24:29,149 --> 00:24:31,070 People are going to look at you differently, 428 00:24:31,071 --> 00:24:32,832 and that's fine. 429 00:24:32,833 --> 00:24:36,195 If you are strong in yourself. 430 00:24:36,196 --> 00:24:39,158 And, Kevin, I see that you are. 431 00:24:39,159 --> 00:24:41,360 You are strong. 432 00:24:41,361 --> 00:24:43,674 You are ready. 433 00:24:44,324 --> 00:24:46,927 You are a treasure in a jar of clay. 434 00:24:49,009 --> 00:24:50,730 Yeah? 435 00:24:50,731 --> 00:24:52,451 Yes, indeed. 436 00:24:52,452 --> 00:24:56,375 Pressed on all sides, but not crushed. 437 00:24:56,376 --> 00:24:59,231 Perplexed, but not in despair. 438 00:24:59,900 --> 00:25:03,319 Persecuted, but never forsaken. 439 00:25:03,784 --> 00:25:07,386 Struck down, but never destroyed. 440 00:25:07,387 --> 00:25:09,028 Now... 441 00:25:09,029 --> 00:25:10,711 have another cup of tea. 442 00:25:14,314 --> 00:25:15,497 Yeah. 443 00:25:16,236 --> 00:25:17,837 Ahh. 444 00:25:17,838 --> 00:25:19,119 Mm-hmm. 445 00:25:20,080 --> 00:25:21,400 Yeah, you need to stretch more. 446 00:25:21,401 --> 00:25:23,162 I don't know why guys don't stretch. 447 00:26:41,321 --> 00:26:44,003 Oh, yeah! 448 00:26:44,004 --> 00:26:45,565 Oh, my God! 449 00:26:45,566 --> 00:26:48,087 Where'd you come from, huh? Huh? Huh? 450 00:26:54,374 --> 00:26:57,898 Oh, I'm so glad to have you back. 451 00:26:58,819 --> 00:27:00,980 So, you're here again? 452 00:27:00,981 --> 00:27:02,771 Safe to come back now? 453 00:27:03,824 --> 00:27:05,185 All good, brother. 454 00:27:08,669 --> 00:27:10,309 Say it. 455 00:27:10,310 --> 00:27:11,671 Your face. 456 00:27:11,672 --> 00:27:13,152 I needed to work something out. 457 00:27:13,407 --> 00:27:15,394 Something that didn't feel finished. 458 00:27:15,576 --> 00:27:17,036 So I did. 459 00:27:17,037 --> 00:27:18,758 And it does. 460 00:27:19,204 --> 00:27:22,081 Winter. You get back with him yet? 461 00:27:22,082 --> 00:27:24,844 No, not yet. It's not for want of trying. 462 00:27:24,845 --> 00:27:27,326 I drove by his place, I left a ton of messages. 463 00:27:27,327 --> 00:27:29,489 Why is he stonewalling now? 464 00:27:29,490 --> 00:27:31,611 Oh, it's Lyndsay who's doing the stonewalling. 465 00:27:31,612 --> 00:27:33,052 I don't know what Winter's doing. 466 00:27:33,053 --> 00:27:35,134 Fucking Eva Braun. 467 00:27:35,135 --> 00:27:37,617 I hope Hynes can dig something up on her. 468 00:27:37,618 --> 00:27:39,378 Yeah, so do I, 469 00:27:39,379 --> 00:27:41,020 but that doesn't help me right now. 470 00:27:41,021 --> 00:27:44,183 Right now the problem is that she's denying me access. 471 00:27:44,646 --> 00:27:46,866 Every hour that passes is an hour lost. 472 00:27:46,867 --> 00:27:48,427 Winter could change his story, 473 00:27:48,428 --> 00:27:51,311 change his mind, he can end the game. 474 00:27:54,675 --> 00:27:56,366 Unless... 475 00:27:58,999 --> 00:28:02,442 Unless we can separate the sheep from the sheepdog. 476 00:28:05,285 --> 00:28:06,807 Awesome. 477 00:28:10,731 --> 00:28:13,813 There is the instance where a monk, 478 00:28:13,814 --> 00:28:16,135 having gone into the wilderness, 479 00:28:16,136 --> 00:28:19,378 sits down under the shade of a tree, 480 00:28:19,379 --> 00:28:22,893 setting mindfulness to the fore. 481 00:28:24,464 --> 00:28:26,145 Always mindful, 482 00:28:26,146 --> 00:28:28,440 he breathes in. 483 00:28:29,149 --> 00:28:30,870 Always mindful, 484 00:28:30,871 --> 00:28:32,993 he breathes out. 485 00:28:35,155 --> 00:28:39,679 Always mindful... 486 00:28:39,680 --> 00:28:41,160 Yes? 487 00:28:41,161 --> 00:28:42,663 Hey, Lyndsay. 488 00:28:43,724 --> 00:28:45,444 Who is this? 489 00:28:45,445 --> 00:28:48,007 Well, you filed the complaint that got me fired... 490 00:28:48,008 --> 00:28:50,009 seems like you should know who I am. 491 00:28:50,010 --> 00:28:52,451 You got yourself fired. 492 00:28:52,452 --> 00:28:56,135 Now, it seems you want to get yourself arrested, as well. 493 00:28:56,136 --> 00:28:57,636 Crazy, right? 494 00:28:58,058 --> 00:28:59,859 What the fuck am I thinking? 495 00:28:59,860 --> 00:29:02,742 - Don't you ever wonder? - Don't I ever wonder what? 496 00:29:02,743 --> 00:29:04,504 What I'm thinking. 497 00:29:04,505 --> 00:29:06,586 Why I would throw away a 30-year career 498 00:29:06,587 --> 00:29:10,349 and let my life go to shit over your boss? 499 00:29:10,350 --> 00:29:13,112 Or what I might know that you don't? 500 00:29:13,113 --> 00:29:17,156 Come meet me right now and I'll tell you what you don't know. 501 00:29:17,157 --> 00:29:19,318 I'll even let you pick the place. 502 00:29:19,319 --> 00:29:22,642 Public place if it makes you feel safer. 503 00:29:22,643 --> 00:29:24,363 But pick it right now. 504 00:29:24,364 --> 00:29:26,486 Before I change my mind. 505 00:29:26,487 --> 00:29:29,169 Or you'll never get the answers you've always wanted. 506 00:29:32,853 --> 00:29:34,974 He's in his room. Mr. Winter. 507 00:29:34,975 --> 00:29:37,737 I have to run out, but I'll be back soon. 508 00:29:37,738 --> 00:29:40,379 I'm going to end this insanity once and for all. 509 00:29:40,380 --> 00:29:43,462 Just call me if you need me, but don't leave. 510 00:29:43,463 --> 00:29:45,906 And don't let anyone in. 511 00:29:50,350 --> 00:29:52,431 Easiest non-cheese mac and cheese... 512 00:29:52,432 --> 00:29:54,994 Nic, are you in there? 513 00:29:54,995 --> 00:29:57,865 Nicole, open the door! 514 00:29:57,866 --> 00:30:00,119 ...packed full of nutrients, proteins... 515 00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:02,361 Nic, open the door! 516 00:30:04,645 --> 00:30:05,925 Hey. 517 00:30:05,926 --> 00:30:07,366 Why didn't you answer your phone? 518 00:30:07,367 --> 00:30:09,048 I-I don't know. It's charging in the kitchen. 519 00:30:09,049 --> 00:30:10,690 Why? What's wrong? 520 00:30:10,691 --> 00:30:12,492 Don't worry. It's gonna be fine. 521 00:30:12,493 --> 00:30:15,014 I hired a lawyer and he's gonna meet us down there, okay? 522 00:30:15,015 --> 00:30:16,536 We will figure this out. Don't worry. 523 00:30:16,537 --> 00:30:18,338 Mom, don't worry about what? 524 00:30:21,902 --> 00:30:24,023 M-Mom, they stole his dog! 525 00:30:24,024 --> 00:30:25,705 I-I just took it back to him. I never did... 526 00:30:25,706 --> 00:30:27,507 - I promise! Nic, what are you saying? - Stop talking. 527 00:30:27,508 --> 00:30:30,189 Nicole Chance, you're under arrest for aggravated assault. 528 00:30:30,190 --> 00:30:32,439 Please place your hands behind your back. 529 00:30:33,554 --> 00:30:35,595 Pepper's parents are pressing charges. 530 00:30:35,596 --> 00:30:38,277 It's gonna be fine. I-I promise. 531 00:30:38,278 --> 00:30:40,240 We'll figure this out. 532 00:31:04,264 --> 00:31:07,066 Ramona Marquez, 34, one son... 533 00:31:07,067 --> 00:31:08,669 he cut her throat. 534 00:31:10,430 --> 00:31:14,273 Ivy Maitland, 31. 535 00:31:14,274 --> 00:31:15,755 She had a son. 536 00:31:16,269 --> 00:31:18,071 He cut her throat. 537 00:31:19,399 --> 00:31:23,923 And Josefa Pefaur, 30. 538 00:31:23,924 --> 00:31:26,966 Twin girls and a baby on the way. 539 00:31:26,967 --> 00:31:29,128 Winter met her in group therapy, 540 00:31:29,129 --> 00:31:31,731 at the Victims of Violent Crime Unit. 541 00:31:31,732 --> 00:31:32,973 Cut her throat. 542 00:31:36,456 --> 00:31:39,739 Katherine, Travis, Su Yee, 543 00:31:39,740 --> 00:31:44,303 Leigh Ann, Ramona, Ivy, and Josefa. 544 00:31:44,304 --> 00:31:46,586 That's as many as I'm sure of. 545 00:31:46,587 --> 00:31:49,099 And I don't believe that that's all there are. 546 00:31:50,110 --> 00:31:53,633 So... these are things you think I need to hear? 547 00:31:53,634 --> 00:31:54,771 No. 548 00:31:55,476 --> 00:31:58,318 Those are the things that everyone needs to hear. 549 00:32:01,522 --> 00:32:03,442 When Winter was 4 years old, 550 00:32:03,443 --> 00:32:05,741 his name was Matthew Debbs. 551 00:32:07,047 --> 00:32:10,290 This is a picture of his mother, Amy. 552 00:32:12,292 --> 00:32:14,293 When Amy was 33 years old, 553 00:32:14,294 --> 00:32:17,753 she tried to kill herself by cutting her own throat. 554 00:32:18,631 --> 00:32:20,033 But it didn't work. 555 00:32:21,502 --> 00:32:25,264 So she tried to kill Matthew instead. 556 00:32:25,265 --> 00:32:26,706 Now, I'm not sure, 557 00:32:26,707 --> 00:32:29,989 but it's probably why he does what he does. 558 00:32:29,990 --> 00:32:32,552 I mean, it seems pretty likely. 559 00:32:32,553 --> 00:32:34,714 But still, if I could, 560 00:32:34,715 --> 00:32:36,688 I'd talk to him about it. 561 00:32:37,317 --> 00:32:40,760 I mean, wouldn't you... like to talk to him about it? 562 00:32:40,761 --> 00:32:43,363 Or... do you not need to? 563 00:32:46,046 --> 00:32:48,208 Do you know everything, Lyndsay? 564 00:32:52,052 --> 00:32:53,213 I'm done. 565 00:32:54,334 --> 00:32:55,615 Well, I'm not. 566 00:32:56,009 --> 00:32:58,131 When I am, you'll know. 567 00:32:59,580 --> 00:33:02,542 And how are the factors for awakening 568 00:33:02,543 --> 00:33:04,984 developed and pursued 569 00:33:04,985 --> 00:33:07,106 so as to bring clear knowing 570 00:33:07,107 --> 00:33:10,511 and release to their culmination? 571 00:33:12,753 --> 00:33:15,555 A monk develops mindfulness 572 00:33:15,556 --> 00:33:18,271 as a factor for awakening. 573 00:33:19,039 --> 00:33:24,283 Persistence as a factor for awakening. 574 00:33:24,284 --> 00:33:29,969 Concentration as a factor for awakening. 575 00:33:29,970 --> 00:33:35,134 Serenity as a factor for awakening. 576 00:33:35,135 --> 00:33:38,778 Dependent on seclusion. 577 00:33:38,779 --> 00:33:41,581 Dependent on dispassion. 578 00:33:41,582 --> 00:33:44,544 Dependent on closure. 579 00:33:44,545 --> 00:33:48,548 Resulting in surrender. 580 00:34:12,332 --> 00:34:14,775 Lyndsay? 581 00:34:18,018 --> 00:34:19,619 Lyndsay?! 582 00:34:19,620 --> 00:34:21,061 It's okay, Ryan. 583 00:34:22,422 --> 00:34:23,962 I'm here. 584 00:34:24,665 --> 00:34:26,547 You're here with me. 585 00:34:38,879 --> 00:34:40,478 Um... 586 00:34:41,161 --> 00:34:43,403 Where the fuck is here? 587 00:34:45,125 --> 00:34:47,446 This is a safe place. 588 00:34:48,069 --> 00:34:50,770 I brought you here because I thought it was best. 589 00:34:50,771 --> 00:34:54,826 A quiet place for us to finish what you started. 590 00:34:55,415 --> 00:34:56,976 You're not a prisoner. 591 00:34:56,977 --> 00:34:58,778 Ryan, you're not a hostage. 592 00:34:58,779 --> 00:35:00,900 You want to call someone, you can call Lyndsay 593 00:35:00,901 --> 00:35:02,663 or you could call the police if you want. 594 00:35:10,175 --> 00:35:12,792 You can tell them that you were kidnapped, 595 00:35:12,793 --> 00:35:14,594 brought here against your will. 596 00:35:14,595 --> 00:35:16,477 It's up to you. 597 00:35:19,517 --> 00:35:21,120 I told you things. 598 00:35:21,121 --> 00:35:22,883 And I know you're not finished. 599 00:35:25,886 --> 00:35:27,807 No, I can't. I can't. 600 00:35:27,808 --> 00:35:29,408 Yeah, you can. 601 00:35:29,409 --> 00:35:31,571 I'm not going to prison. 602 00:35:31,572 --> 00:35:33,093 I'm not asking you to. 603 00:35:37,618 --> 00:35:39,620 I've seen this before, Ryan. 604 00:35:41,622 --> 00:35:44,624 I had a patient. A woman. 605 00:35:44,625 --> 00:35:46,628 She went through this, too. 606 00:35:47,508 --> 00:35:49,468 She and I did. Together. 607 00:35:49,469 --> 00:35:51,711 Who was she? 608 00:35:52,133 --> 00:35:53,674 What was wrong with her? 609 00:35:57,277 --> 00:35:59,479 She hurt people. 610 00:35:59,480 --> 00:36:00,800 Like you did. 611 00:36:00,801 --> 00:36:02,059 Like you do. 612 00:36:03,003 --> 00:36:05,444 She also had a history of abuse, 613 00:36:05,445 --> 00:36:07,527 going back to when she was a child. 614 00:36:07,528 --> 00:36:12,171 She was beset by feelings of guilt and rage, remorse... 615 00:36:12,172 --> 00:36:14,406 Retreating into dissociation. 616 00:36:14,895 --> 00:36:17,367 She also told me that she couldn't face prison. 617 00:36:18,458 --> 00:36:19,995 She was too afraid. 618 00:36:21,622 --> 00:36:23,864 But, as afraid as she was... 619 00:36:26,146 --> 00:36:28,003 she trusted me more. 620 00:36:29,469 --> 00:36:31,923 She admitted what she'd done. 621 00:36:32,863 --> 00:36:33,993 In court. 622 00:36:34,301 --> 00:36:35,955 There was a plea of diminished capacity, 623 00:36:35,956 --> 00:36:37,997 and I testified on her behalf. 624 00:36:37,998 --> 00:36:39,879 She was committed to a psychiatric hospital. 625 00:36:39,880 --> 00:36:41,561 Not a prison. 626 00:36:41,562 --> 00:36:45,004 She's receiving care and she's rebuilding her life. 627 00:36:45,005 --> 00:36:47,731 And I am helping her do that. 628 00:36:49,329 --> 00:36:52,110 It's slow, but it is happening. 629 00:36:53,814 --> 00:36:56,216 There's a path here, Ryan. 630 00:36:59,019 --> 00:37:01,244 A path to becoming whole. 631 00:37:01,702 --> 00:37:04,263 And I think you're brave enough to take those first steps. 632 00:37:04,264 --> 00:37:05,745 And I'll walk it with you. 633 00:37:05,746 --> 00:37:08,501 How do I know any of this is... 634 00:37:09,830 --> 00:37:12,912 If it could really all work out for me the way you say? 635 00:37:12,913 --> 00:37:16,195 What you can know is what the future will look like 636 00:37:16,196 --> 00:37:18,011 if you don't change it. 637 00:37:21,882 --> 00:37:24,243 It's going to be like the past. 638 00:37:24,244 --> 00:37:26,285 No. No. I'm not... 639 00:37:26,286 --> 00:37:28,968 I mean, I-I can't just leave my life! 640 00:37:28,969 --> 00:37:31,130 I mean, I have to put everything in order first. 641 00:37:31,131 --> 00:37:32,411 I can't just walk away! 642 00:37:32,412 --> 00:37:34,333 Yeah, you can. 643 00:37:34,334 --> 00:37:36,096 You can and you have to. 644 00:37:37,337 --> 00:37:39,379 You deserve to. 645 00:37:41,461 --> 00:37:46,425 I asked you once how someone could consent 646 00:37:46,426 --> 00:37:47,867 to let you in their head 647 00:37:47,868 --> 00:37:50,230 without knowing what you would find there. 648 00:37:53,233 --> 00:37:55,355 But I knew what you would find. 649 00:37:57,117 --> 00:37:59,318 Yeah, you did. 650 00:37:59,319 --> 00:38:01,041 But you said yes anyway. 651 00:38:03,764 --> 00:38:06,766 You trusted me to bring you to this moment. 652 00:38:14,054 --> 00:38:18,297 Nothing worthwhile is ever done through thinking alone. 653 00:38:18,298 --> 00:38:20,540 At some point, you have to act. 654 00:38:27,588 --> 00:38:29,549 What will it look like? 655 00:38:29,550 --> 00:38:30,990 Where do I go? 656 00:38:31,376 --> 00:38:32,792 What do I do? 657 00:38:32,793 --> 00:38:35,875 You just walk into a police station, 658 00:38:35,876 --> 00:38:37,797 any police station. 659 00:38:37,798 --> 00:38:40,079 - With you? - No. I can't. 660 00:38:40,080 --> 00:38:43,002 They would think I'd coerced you. 661 00:38:43,003 --> 00:38:44,644 They'd be thinking that down the line somewhere, 662 00:38:44,645 --> 00:38:48,207 some defense lawyer's gonna use my presence against them. 663 00:38:48,208 --> 00:38:50,130 But you'll come after? When it's done? 664 00:38:52,493 --> 00:38:53,898 When it's done. 665 00:38:59,459 --> 00:39:00,820 Well then... 666 00:39:03,303 --> 00:39:05,345 I guess it's time to act. 667 00:39:08,589 --> 00:39:10,310 Yeah. 668 00:39:20,240 --> 00:39:22,041 I'll see you on the path. 669 00:39:38,739 --> 00:39:39,979 Hey. 670 00:39:40,320 --> 00:39:41,902 I think this is it. 671 00:39:54,755 --> 00:39:55,875 What is this? 672 00:40:01,401 --> 00:40:03,163 Why are we here? 673 00:40:05,405 --> 00:40:07,096 I called your son. 674 00:40:08,128 --> 00:40:10,369 Said how you never stopped keeping the faith 675 00:40:10,370 --> 00:40:12,732 the entire time I've known you. 676 00:40:12,733 --> 00:40:14,854 Told him what you did for them, 677 00:40:14,855 --> 00:40:17,456 how you'd take all the beatings there are. 678 00:40:17,457 --> 00:40:19,098 How you never hated, 679 00:40:19,099 --> 00:40:20,821 no matter how hurt you were. 680 00:40:23,864 --> 00:40:24,864 D... 681 00:40:24,865 --> 00:40:26,699 They get it now. 682 00:40:27,147 --> 00:40:29,389 They're up there waiting. 683 00:40:31,311 --> 00:40:33,553 They want to talk. 684 00:41:19,159 --> 00:41:20,801 Good call. 685 00:41:25,285 --> 00:41:27,051 All right. 686 00:41:29,810 --> 00:41:32,051 Let's just get it over with then. 687 00:41:32,052 --> 00:41:33,613 Go ahead. 688 00:41:33,614 --> 00:41:35,375 Here's a fucked-up thing. 689 00:41:38,098 --> 00:41:41,566 When I needed you, you were gone. 690 00:41:42,776 --> 00:41:44,944 When I told you what was happening, 691 00:41:45,486 --> 00:41:47,707 you heard enough to know. 692 00:41:48,197 --> 00:41:50,199 I didn't get it, though. 693 00:41:51,367 --> 00:41:54,674 I kept thinking that you left because you didn't understand. 694 00:41:54,675 --> 00:41:58,878 That if I could just be clearer, explain better, 695 00:41:59,459 --> 00:42:01,241 that you'd finally step up. 696 00:42:04,525 --> 00:42:08,208 It took me years to see that you just didn't give a fuck. 697 00:42:09,610 --> 00:42:14,574 And now, when what I really need is for you to be gone, 698 00:42:14,575 --> 00:42:16,434 here you are. 699 00:42:17,226 --> 00:42:20,139 With your money, your bought-off judges, 700 00:42:20,140 --> 00:42:22,301 your Pis hunting me down. 701 00:42:22,302 --> 00:42:25,585 With all the shit that got us here... 702 00:42:25,586 --> 00:42:27,508 on you. 703 00:42:30,110 --> 00:42:32,552 So here's my offer. 704 00:42:32,553 --> 00:42:36,556 Never try to find or interfere with me again. 705 00:42:36,557 --> 00:42:38,623 In this life or any other, 706 00:42:39,239 --> 00:42:42,001 by way of covering all bets. 707 00:42:42,763 --> 00:42:44,964 As long as you can do that, 708 00:42:45,713 --> 00:42:47,507 I can even thank you. 709 00:42:50,651 --> 00:42:53,092 You made me who I am, 710 00:42:53,093 --> 00:42:54,615 and I'm okay with it. 711 00:42:58,298 --> 00:43:00,395 How about you? 712 00:43:01,562 --> 00:43:03,142 Are you okay with it? 713 00:43:15,435 --> 00:43:16,876 You know what? 714 00:43:16,877 --> 00:43:18,918 I don't give a fuck if you are or not. 715 00:43:18,919 --> 00:43:20,840 I just need to know if we're done. 716 00:43:20,841 --> 00:43:22,250 For good. 717 00:43:22,723 --> 00:43:24,003 Last time we speak. 718 00:43:24,004 --> 00:43:25,845 Last time we anything. 719 00:43:25,846 --> 00:43:27,087 Ever. 720 00:43:29,850 --> 00:43:31,175 Yes. 721 00:43:34,094 --> 00:43:35,638 Awesome. 722 00:44:15,055 --> 00:44:16,255 Frank? 723 00:44:16,256 --> 00:44:17,817 Hey, sorry so late. 724 00:44:17,818 --> 00:44:19,659 Oh, forget it. What's up? 725 00:44:19,660 --> 00:44:21,460 Ryan Winter. 726 00:44:21,461 --> 00:44:24,223 Yeah. What about him? 727 00:44:24,224 --> 00:44:25,785 Well, I don't have any details yet, just... 728 00:44:25,786 --> 00:44:27,266 he called the office. 729 00:44:27,267 --> 00:44:29,669 He was asking for somebody to come out to his house. 730 00:44:29,670 --> 00:44:31,110 And it probably should be my boss, 731 00:44:31,111 --> 00:44:32,672 but my boss is in Tahoe. 732 00:44:32,673 --> 00:44:34,113 Come out to his house? For what? 733 00:44:34,114 --> 00:44:36,275 He just said that he needed to talk to somebody. 734 00:44:36,276 --> 00:44:38,451 About the things that he's done. 735 00:44:38,919 --> 00:44:40,159 Now, obviously, I said that I'd go. 736 00:44:40,160 --> 00:44:41,881 I'm rolling out there now. 737 00:44:41,882 --> 00:44:43,843 I thought I'd give you the heads up in case you wanted to come. 738 00:44:43,844 --> 00:44:46,165 - You fucking serious? - Well, nothing's official, 739 00:44:46,166 --> 00:44:49,248 but if this is what it sounds like it could be... 740 00:44:49,249 --> 00:44:50,690 you deserve to be there, man. 741 00:44:50,691 --> 00:44:52,411 I mean, you, of all people. 742 00:44:52,412 --> 00:44:54,333 You're the best, Frank. I'm on my way. 743 00:46:21,622 --> 00:46:22,822 Detective. 744 00:46:32,432 --> 00:46:34,834 Where's Frank? 745 00:46:45,325 --> 00:46:48,889 I said, where the fuck is Frank?! 746 00:46:50,771 --> 00:46:53,292 He's right there. 747 00:46:53,293 --> 00:46:55,215 Frank... 748 00:48:07,722 --> 00:48:14,546 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com